holiday cheer....

so it all started out on Black Friday...i know im not the only one, but it all started with me going to work the day after thanksgiving! and by the way thats just inhumane to have to go to work the day after thanksgiving cuz i mean come on! u need time to digest your food and relax. but anyways thats besides the point....soo today i had to wake up at 7ish and it felt like i just closed my eyes for a sec and now i have to wake up?! As i was getting a ride from my father to work we came across a police giving a bike messenger a ticket! A BIKE MESSENGER?! what did he do? i wonder...aaaaaannnnywayysss....so i was to open up my ma's store for half of the day and then go home. When i called my cousin to come pick me up it took her about over an hour to come get me. Usually it only takes about 30 mins from my house to the store...and when she arrives she wouldnt stop asking me what i wanted to eat even after i said i wasnt hungry. After debating for awhile, we ended up going to Cheesecake Factory, which we had to wait 2 hours. Before we even got there we had to bypass all these christmas shoppers. i swear i was back in highschool hallways where people just walk super SUPER slow then suddenly stop blocking your path OR theres a bunch of people congregating in front of the escalator once again blocking the path. by the time we got to sit down it was 1 something? and we did not get done until 3ish. As for me, I never really like staying in one place for very long, and my cousins have mentioned that they both wanted to walk around after we eat. i complied in the beginning, but as our lunch began to drag on i felt like i was wasting away my day...yes i didnt mind walking around with them but i also wanted to go home and take a nap or relax cuz i only had about 4 hours of sleep last night. So then my cousin started lecturing me, and when she lectures she never stops its like a redundant conversation that ever ends!!!! she goes on about how im being selfish and spoiled i was for wanting her to pick me up and drive back home (which by the way wasnt my intention) then she goes on telling me how i ruined her holiday (uh, excuse me, but your holiday wasnt the only one being ruined) that i work too, why didnt i drive and pay for parking at the lot etc etc. she says, "and what kind of stuff that you need to do thats so important? i know you dont do homework, i never see u do homework...why didnt u wait for your dad to come pick you up if u had stuff to do...irresponsible...blah blah blah....'something about'....being a brat....sacrificing a day..." it just kept going on and going and going and going and going like the energizer bunny, and seriously do i need to show you that i have homework to do? whats this gotta do with homework anyways? do i need to jam it in your face and show u my homework?! you never see me do homework cuz i either did it already or will do it after i finish spending time with my loved ones!! IDIOT! you is stupid to the max!!!...literally.....and i dont know what came over me, but i snapped and yelled at her telling her, "FINE, ILL LEAVE, and you need to learn how to SHUT UP!!!" and i left....not to mention it was in the middle of Cheesecake Factory...I just lost it....i already let her rant on for 2 - 5 mins (cuz when she starts talking and making a big deal out of something so small and mistook it for something else....it feels like shes going on for eternity!) talking about the same bullshit....i admit i was wrong to yell at her the way i did, but she had no right as well to make assumptions and belittling me the way she did...granted shes older, but she has yet really gain any respect from me....looking down on me like that...acting like she knows stuff....i really hate losing my tempter and that is the most unattractive thing about me...but i couldnt stand her.....I am at wrong here for yelling at her and for yelling at her in front of my way younger cousin....i did not mean to do that....BUT DAMN!!! someone has got to tell her to shut up, and oh the next day, which is today she goes and calls up my mom and yells at MY mom to tell her to yell at me...such a (i dont even know the word for it ) thing to do....face up to it....tell it to my face!!! its only good that i just yelled at her! i am not held accountable for anything else if she were to really push my buttons .....but of course i will try to refrain myself from doing anything else...because thats just who she is..